The diagnosis
for survival was not looking good. It was hard not to be dejected
after losing so many friends. There were five of us left now sat
huddled in the dark, shivering with cold as well as fear. I was glad
the others could not see me, the fear etched into my face would not
have settled nerves. It was nearly time to move again, staying in one
place too long was a sure way to get dead.
We had already enjoyed
this oasis of calm for longer than was prudent but dammit we
needed the rest. Exhausted we had found this room and quickly made it
home. No one had any energy left to keep watch, we had just collapsed
and slept. We had been running for hours, no time for food or water.
I woke up alert, moving
into a crouch. I was ready to run again but experience taught me
patience. Listening for a repeat of the sound that had woken me, I
waited. It came again and I relaxed. Just crying nothing to worry
about, unless the sobbing grew louder. I do not know when it was I
became numb to sorrow. If I had to guess, I would say the moment my
wife was ripped from me in a crimson spray of blood.
I remember scrubbing
the blood from me. Even now I can still feel its sticky wetness all
over me. I am sick of blood and death, I try to remember better
times. Two years now I have lived life on the run with my new family.
Moving by day and hiding by night had become the routine, our
lifeline. Never staying in the same place twice. It was the only way
to avoid the seekers.
I do not know where
they came from but in the space of three days most of the population
had been wiped out. Bodies were left where they fell, so I knew we
were not food. Maybe they just liked to kill, the sound of screaming
the spray of blood. I had come to think of them as the artists of
death. Small pockets of us remained, every now and then we managed to
kill one of them. We were not so much waging war but buying time to
run.
Heading across the
country towards the last known safe haven. A military bunker that was
sending out a broadcast on repeat. It changed only in the date it
left, so we all knew that it was still current. Hope was in short
supply and I clung to this as a drowning man might cling to a twig.
More than twenty of us had set out, I remember the excitement on
their faces when we first heard the message. We thought we had it
all, like the cat that got the cream.
As the weeks wore on,
we lost people and found others. We all shared a mutual desire,
to find shelter. To feel safe and not wake up in the dead of the
night, heart pounding. Clothes sticking to the skin, a scream caught
in the throat. It seemed we
were no closer to our goal as I peeled the clothes from my skin.
The
others were awake now, I could hear them all talking in whispers. A
weary sound, the muted conversation. Defeat hung in the air and was
as dangerous to our success as the enemy. I took charge, issuing
hushed instructions to get ready. I moved to the window and slid the
blackout blind to one side ever so slightly. Putting my eye to the
gap I felt my heart jack hammer in my chest. I found myself staring
in the large unblinking eye of death...
Wow. I could clearly see the images I know you were seeing while you were writing this.
ReplyDeleteVery intense and profound my friend.Well done!
Very good!
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